ƧhIverS

The wave of unrest,
ruffling through my nerves,
I sense excitement
for reasons unknown,
Should I let it wash me away,
or hold on tight and,
stay where I have been?

The new territory is unventured
though I have had my share of peek
There is no right,
as there is no wrong
All that is at stake is me,
getting destroyed in the process
and all that has ever been.
or,
it will be my first step in paradise,
a whole new bright world,
the scene with my eyes shut tight
sprung to life.

I can tell the end when it is coming
or more correctly, my heart
throbbing and beating, hard at that
sending shivers through me.

maybe I should freeze ,
and let this time fly by
not be overwhelmed by spinning
when my world is in a blur.
It's a set pattern,
life becomes beautiful,
the center of my universe is defined,
and the star shines.
But, as the hourglass drops each sand grain,
the nebula dwarfs,the abyss reappears,
and, the shivers concur.

The other end of pendulum

Rat race.
what does it take to get apart?
a pinch of indifference,
but not a little too much
for a little here,
and a little there,
would sway you away from
the reason you got away.

Questioning self and the ways of your being,
an unsettling unrest residing in your heart
Is it worth it to go on?
the road less travelled,
a mountain of 'what ifs' mounting your chest
but then 'decisions' have never been my favourite

what am i searching for?
a pIvot,
something around which my life can revolve,
the idea of imprinting ,
a direction of life to live.

The only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven't found it yet, keep looking.Don't settle.

As with all matters of the heart, you'll know when you find it. (Steve Jobs)

I hope.